Wednesday, January 6, 2010

I got this little piece of body art several months ago to remind me to not let the junk I struggle with hold me captive. My friend Melissa took this picture when we were being creative(frees my mind) this past weekend. I figured I would wait a while to reveal this one. The fact that I got the first one was shock enough for some of you.

Humbled. Broken. Desperate. Weak. Ashamed. Am I the only one? Doesn't really matter. God has once again allowed me to go to a place where I HAVE to seek him to survive. HE has reminded me of HIS grace, MERCY, forgiveness, unconditional LOVE, and that no matter how undeserving... I AM BLESSED. I have no words when I try to express how much it means to me that my family and friends LOVE and lift me up even when I am so tarnished. I am HIS child. I am so thankful! No matter how unworthy, I will praise him, seek him, beg HIM to show me the way. I am seeking something. Not sure what. If you are a believer, please pray for me. GOD has plans for me, BIG plans. He has saved me too many times. Even though 2010 started pretty crappy, and I don't make resolutions, I want to make a DECISION to seek HIM first in everything. I am praying that this year will be more of a blessing than the last, and that's a pretty big step up! I pray the same for you! Hold me accountable. I LOVE you Andy. You are my rock. I love you girls. You are my JOY. I love you friends. You tell it to me straight, and you laugh and cry with me. Thank you GOD for saving me.You are my strength. Without you, I am nothing.


*Note- I pulled this post for a bit bc I felt it made me too vulnerable to haters, BUT that is what HE calls us to be. Not so confident in ourselves, but in him. So, if you choose to use this against me, come on. It's only making me a better person in the end.

7 comments:

  1. Oh Anna Bess ... Praying that your year gets better .... BUT thrilled to see that you recognise where you have to turn to for strength ... our Father in Heaven ...

    Go easy on yourself, GF ...

    Love, Tracy G

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  2. Love the tat! Love the pic...you look so peacefully intense (is that possibly...peaceful and intense at same time???) Oh, well....Take care and will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Remember Jeremiah 29;11.....He sooo has great Plans for YOU!!

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  3. Girl! You must know that when you are the weakest, He is the strongest. What a blessing you are to so many!!!

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  4. A.B. I can totally relate with you on your post. We share it in common.

    Stephanie H.

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  5. May God Bless you and keep you in all of your ways, May he hold you close and comfort you in times of trouble, May he rejoice with you in times of rejoicing and May you know the difference!! Christ uses each one of us and our talents even when we do not know, so create and be a blessing to others as it also blesses you to create. ;-)

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  6. I just discovered your blog and how pleased I was to find that your too are a believer! 2009 for me started like your 2010 started for you (so it sounds). I have been searching for Him ever since. I thought I had found Him before but circumstances that come in our lives show us just how much we still need to be searching. Hang in there and good for you for challenging someone to say otherwise. Even in that it shows that you are strong in Him.
    Linda

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  7. Can't imagine you having struggles this big..you're so "together". My motto is: we all have our "stuff" and our "story". Keep leaning on Him....and remember, they don't teach you in VBS or seminary that some of the sheep bite! Romans 15:13 (my verse)

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